Horror Story, Part 3 of 3

My testimony is the work Jesus did to turn a blind, deaf, angry, selfish soul into someone who is learning and occasionally operating in His virtues. He teaches me to care for others and not just myself. He teaches me about the kingdom of heaven versus the kingdom of man and how to choose heaven over man. He teaches me to realize my failings earlier, better than later, and to allow Him to work on them instead of defending and maintaining the failure. He teaches me about Himself who doesn’t fail, doesn’t give up, is there during the worst, and working for the best.

He is the manifestation of all the values I wish were in my life all the time, without fail, instead of just showing up in small bursts of inspirational living. He teaches me to appreciate the positive changes and not to give up during ongoing failures. He teaches me to look for the beauty He has created and He has available, even in the worst of times and the worst of people, instead of staying focused on the depression and sorrow of darkness that is always with us on this planet. He teaches me that faith is real and His truth surpasses all that man can create. He teaches enough about Himself and His virtues to show me that heaven is a real place and a desired destination.

I realize in my experience that anytime with Him is better than anytime without Him. My testimony is that I’m a much better person because of Him with the expectation that I create much less damage and harm when I am with Him. I see why the apostles followed Him around even though they often didn’t understand what He was doing and were confused by what He was saying. I learned and am learning that He is God, and I am not. Thank heaven!

Santa Reflections from 2025, Number 1

I play Santa during the Christmas season, in full costume. You never know what you will face as a Santa. Most of the time, you are just a stage prop for families coming to create memories related to their annual traditions. Mom and dad’s often have a string of Santa pictures through the years as one of the ways they track the growth of their children. You can see the, “Not again,” face in some of the kids faces as they grow older. Still, most play along because it is the price you pay for being family.

Three truly touching events happened this year. Each remind that, even in a joyful season, suffering and sorrow exist.

  1. An older woman who had a stroke and realized she had become handicapped wanted to sit with Santa. She looked sincerely into my face and told me that she wanted her mind back. I could see the pain in her awareness. I took her hands in mine, and we prayed together. It was all I knew to do.
  2. An elderly woman came in with dementia. Her family surrounded her with love and wanted to give her a visit with Santa because it fit where she was mentally/emotionally. The Chamber, my sponsor, provided the time I needed to visit with her and let her family use the time to love on her. She may have been unaware, but the love she was given by her family was beautiful to see.
  3. A woman came in with three teen daughters, dressed alike, and a framed picture. The picture was of her only son who had died in late May, in the same month after graduating high school. She wept profusely while I held the picture and the daughters posed. She was truly brave and thanked me, who had done nothing, for being there. Rarely do you get to see such courage in such a painful time as I did with her visit.

I have much to learn from my interactions with others. I will write another, but lighter, post of reflections on Santa soon.

Discernment

Discernment is the ability to evaluate the qualities in any choices. The most personal and or important discernment might be between good and evil because that affects an individual person at a potentially eternal level.

There must be a solid standard for discernment to work. Many people choose standards which do not require moral and or ethical standards like the controlling values of money, wealth, prestige, power, and the like. False standards, or gods, are dangerous and can create tremendous levels of life and relationship damage. It is important to know whether a god or the God is the controlling influence.

Scams require discernment to see through them and not be trapped by them. Scams appeal to desires and feelings, not to standards of virtue that are greater. You see so many pitches for instant (or extremely speedy) health, wealth, appearance, power, or pleasure of some sort. The worst scams we face might be the lies we tell ourselves. “I can break _ (list any healthy life discipline broken) because __ (list any excuse you’ve ever used).”

Discernment teaches us to see who or what benefits from the program, sales pitch, or idea being presented. The detective movies always say, “follow the money.” Another way of checking for scams is the old saying, “If it sounds too good to be true, be assured it is.” The Bible is the best measure. This measure or standard can be applied to business, politics, relationships, and church.

Prosperity preachers are being treated like scammers because their messages appeal to man’s desired outcomes more than the preferences and purposes of God according to the Bible. However, any preacher or person who shares the gospel can cherry pick their preferred verses to make the Bible appear to say what they want it to say. The problem isn’t the Bible. It is the person distorting the Bible for their own purpose. It’s up to each person to know the difference: discernment.

It is important to protect ourselves from the scammers in this life and the scammers who misrepresent truth for their own benefit. “Is this the truth of God as verified throughout the Bible or the preference of man?” Is a good guiding question. It is important for each of us to know what is having a controlling influence over our choices. A critical life skill is discernment between the self oriented values of this world and the true virtues of God. Jesus is a proven standard and is verified throughout the Bible.

Saying Is Seeing

I had a long conversation with my pastor about the beauty and growth of our church. The more we spoke, the more I realized that everything I said exposed where I am in my personal growth. I see the church in terms of where I am. That may or may not directly correlate with where the church is. We, the church, are a single group made up of diverse individuals, as my friend Heather says. We are each a unique part of the same creature.

The pastor has the unenviable position of seeing all the individual parts, hearing each speak from his/her point of view, and the requirement to discern what they say in the context of the whole. He has a most difficult job, especially when you consider that He has to apply what he hears the family say to where the Lord is leading and to move all the family toward God. Anyone who has had to keep a group in a good working relationship while on a journey together knows the challenge.

Speaking to the pastor shows me my limitations and individual point of view. I may not have really seen myself honestly in my thoughts. My insight became much clearer as I opened my mouth to speak. My words, out loud and in the open, began to be more clear when put in the context of a broader and deeper point of view. The pastors ideas, responses, and point of view acted as a mirror, reflecting my words and ideas back to me so I could see them better through context than when they were just located in my mind.

The insights give me the opportunity to pursue the Lord with what I’m seeing inside myself. Though the pastor made no complaint or correction to me, my words showed me immaturity in my thinking and insecurity in my feelings. What was not seen or said by my pastor became obvious to me through my own words.

I used to say things to my students like, “You can’t write any assignment without exposing the author behind it.” It is as true in me as it was for them. Listening is a two way proposition. It is hearing the other and hearing what is really behind what you are saying. It is the complex art of self correction and awareness for growth’s sake. It is choosing to reflect and become aware of your own motives, good and bad. Your own words can help you see what growth lies in your future. God uses relationships so that, through our communications, we can see Him, each other, and ourselves with clearer vision. God’s plan is our growth toward Him. Our openness allows Him to teach us, even through our own words.

Dad’s Complaint

I’ve talked to many fathers who have a similar complaint about how children hear. Dad would tell us some truth that we children needed to hear and master. A neighbor would mention this truth in passing, after father had told us the same many times over, and we would come home with that truth as a sudden revelation. Dad would complain, “I’ve been telling you that for months,” and he had.

Recently, like many times before, I went to church and had the same experience. Ideas floating through my mind would be coalesced into clear images during the songs and/or sermon, and it was like I heard it for the first time. I can imagine the Lord, like my dad, saying, “I’ve been saying that to you for a long time,” and He has. Sometimes it is easier to hear it from someone else than to trust that my thoughts are being encouraged from heaven.

I have talked to many people, faith and non faith, whose ideas have been encouraged from heaven. Maybe it is easier for me to see/hear it than it is for them because the ideas form in their minds. They are aware of the thought, but not the source. I had an atheist explain his beliefs to me one day. He was all about life being random, but his love was order and organization. He perfectly described intelligent design of creation while saying it was all formed by random. He was saying one thing, but we were hearing different things. Order and random are absolute opposites, but he didn’t hear it in what he was saying. I think that he loved the qualities of God but just didn’t want anyone to interfere with the way he structured and lived his life.

Artists see beauty and want to have it, be it, create it. They accept that discipline is a requirement of the process. Christians perceive that God has invited them into His beauty and accept that discipline is a necessary part of the process. The beauty of God’s life is way beyond us requiring us to have help and leave the bad parts of ourselves behind. Non believers see what we believe to be wonderful as God the enforcer shoving His will and priorities down their throats. What Christians see as rescue, non believers see as having their boat torpedoed.

I find this confusing because everyone seems to love the values of God like love, joy, peace, justice, honor, truth, and the like. We all seem to be in agreement on one level, but not in agreement as to the source or the process for gaining those true values. The purest qualities of all those values only come from God’s warehouse. All other sources are like bathtub gin, pretty low grade and chancy, the difference between street drugs and medicine from the pharmacy.